There's always someone watching
I've always been very self-conscious, and as a result, there are certain things I won't do in front of other people. Some of these things are: getting undressed, dancing (unless we're in a club), and singing. The list used to be much longer - ridiculous things like not being able to apply make up or looking in a mirror in public (fear of being perceived shallow/vain). I even used to feel uncomfortable eating in front of people (paranoid that people would think, 'god, no wonder she's so fat'). Irrational, silly things, I know, but I've mostly grown out of that now, though I still have my days. I still feel awkward, knowing that one of my colleagues is in a cubicle in the loo next to mine, and can hear every tinkle.
Strange as that may be, another one of my peculiarities is singing to myself whilst having a wee. This, I will only do when I know no one's around. I don't know why I do it, but it's just a quirk of mine, I guess. Anyway, yesterday in the loos at work, I could have sworn there was no one in there. I did my singing thing, picking a song that's way too high for my little voice to reach, singing completely off-key and not being able to hit the higher notes. It was like a dog dying. Then I hear a scuffle of a shoe in the next cubicle, or it could have been a muffled laugh. How mortified was I? I couldn't get out of there quick enough! I practically ran back to my desk, red-faced and cringing. I really hope it wasn't a member of my team/my boss and that they didn't know it was me! How embarrassing..
I had a few giggles over it later on, with the best friend. The convo lead to many childish giggles about farts and poo and other such cringe-worthy tales. We're like a couple of 8yr old boys sometimes.. fun though :) My question is, can you recognise someone from their singing voice if you've never heard them sing before? I could have sworn people were sniggering as I came in this morning.. Hehe..
I took a half day off to go christmas shopping on Oxford Street yesterday. I'd hoped to get the bulk of it out of the way. So did I buy lots of presents? No... Did I buy anything for anyone else? No... Did I buy more clothes, shoes and accessories for myself, despite already over-spending this month? Yeees... I was very bad. I bought myself a metallic studded belt from River Island, two pairs of very pretty dangly earrings, some charcoal-coloured slouchy boots, a wrap-around cardy, and some sparkly mushroomy-coloured eyeshadow. I so don't deserve any christmas presents this year..
Strange as that may be, another one of my peculiarities is singing to myself whilst having a wee. This, I will only do when I know no one's around. I don't know why I do it, but it's just a quirk of mine, I guess. Anyway, yesterday in the loos at work, I could have sworn there was no one in there. I did my singing thing, picking a song that's way too high for my little voice to reach, singing completely off-key and not being able to hit the higher notes. It was like a dog dying. Then I hear a scuffle of a shoe in the next cubicle, or it could have been a muffled laugh. How mortified was I? I couldn't get out of there quick enough! I practically ran back to my desk, red-faced and cringing. I really hope it wasn't a member of my team/my boss and that they didn't know it was me! How embarrassing..
I had a few giggles over it later on, with the best friend. The convo lead to many childish giggles about farts and poo and other such cringe-worthy tales. We're like a couple of 8yr old boys sometimes.. fun though :) My question is, can you recognise someone from their singing voice if you've never heard them sing before? I could have sworn people were sniggering as I came in this morning.. Hehe..
I took a half day off to go christmas shopping on Oxford Street yesterday. I'd hoped to get the bulk of it out of the way. So did I buy lots of presents? No... Did I buy anything for anyone else? No... Did I buy more clothes, shoes and accessories for myself, despite already over-spending this month? Yeees... I was very bad. I bought myself a metallic studded belt from River Island, two pairs of very pretty dangly earrings, some charcoal-coloured slouchy boots, a wrap-around cardy, and some sparkly mushroomy-coloured eyeshadow. I so don't deserve any christmas presents this year..
fear, well, I know a girl who can't pee in public bathrooms...and I was like we are enclosed, they can't see u, never go to china, no stalls there.
and she won't go to the bathroom at school either.
umm
me, I hate when people stare at me
Heehee..your boots sound lovely! I bought two jumpers the other day to wear with my leggings and then the lovely sales lady said how a belt would look good with one of the jumpers....so I bought that too. Oops. Now I have to go back in the store and ask her how to wear the belt with it because however I have it, I look like I have gargantuan hips and look poo. Oh and I bought some short slouchy shorts..possibly to wear with my gold tights..hmm..I really should just email you!
Oh and I don't think I'd recognise anyone from their singing voice *giggles*
I rather think it was a muffled giggle...!
I still hate looking at myself in a mirror in public for the sake of it - although I've learned to do it in the lift when putting down windblown curls on the way to the office.
It's ok if trying on a coat or a pair of sunglasses, but for some reason I feel really self conscious if I do it with a handbag...why is that?
You're like me on the "ostensibly going gift shopping but come back with three things for me and only one gift" sort of spree.
You're just going to have to do a room-check before you start belting out your favourites! (BTW, Dec 20 is coming...!)
And thanks for the massive giggle I've just had about your 'wee singing'! LOL! Now I know why the dog was following you to the loo at my place, he's a fan of your work! ;oD
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It always makes me giggle that some people can have a whole conversation on their mobile in a public loo!
JL, ooh new clothes! Yay, we like those :D
No stalls in China? What part was that..? I've only been to 1 bathroom in China that didn't have doors on the stalls - one of those crouchy holes in the ground too, and needless to say, I couldn't go! Euch.
Amylou! Oooh you been shopping too! Gargantuan hips, my foot, you soo don't :p but I know what you mean about the belt - it looks weird on me - I just can't carry it off. Did you keep it in the end? Ooh gold tights and shorts? V Kylie! :)
Livvy, there's a lady at work who always brushes her hair in the lift - no matter how full it is - I find it quite strange! I hate standing behind her..
I am the opposite with handbags/sunglasses & coats - you can't look bad with a handbag :)
Gift shopping for yourself sprees are the best :D
JL, lol, I've never known anyone get excited over a tool belt, but I guess you are a design student! Hehe.. Have you been shopping yet? I would have on the day I received the money ;)
Diva! How nice to 'see' you! I look forward to properly seeing you all again :)
Hehe, yes, Dog did say he appreciates my 'work' ;)
Matty H, hiya! Gosh, I never even thought about that.. but eww.. splashback, even mental splashback, yukkk! Thanks for that lovely image..! I guess we girls have it good after all! hehe..
You have funny toilet habits girl! I suppose everyone has their own little perks! Make a proper sweep of the lavs next time you go in!
Seema, there's no way I'm sitting on the lap of a fat bearded man in a polyester suit, let alone rubbing his tummy! Yeuch.. Santa's are nothing but freaky!
Ames, what are you returning - the belts or the shorts and tights?